This woman made me a cuckold back then

I am a white man who has realized that he is not a real man. I have never been able to sexually satisfy a woman in my entire life. My penis very rarely gets hard and then not bigger than 4.7 inches / 12 cm. Many positions like doggy or cowgirl are impossible for me to perform without my penis constantly slipping out of the vagina. Long sex is also not possible with me because I am a premature ejculator and always ejaculate between 10-50 seconds. Women see me as a sexual failure and avoid sex with me sooner or later. I can not blame them for this and have resigned myself to it. Also, I have discovered the benefits of my sexual failure and have developed some fetishes which help me to still have a fulfilling sex life without a woman having to have sex with me. In addition, it is now no more performance anxiety, no more pressure to perform, no more humiliation when my tiny dick is seen, no more nervousness before to havening sex, no more concerns about performance quality, no more trouble with hitting that hole and many more no more.